| Location | Aberdeenshire |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 4/2008 |
| Date of Death | 4/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,936 since 20/06/2008 |
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Murron was born perfect but sleeping at 42 weeks exactly on the 16th of April 2008 at 9.22 pm. Murron weighed 8lbs 5.5oz and was 57cm long!
Thank you for visiting Murron's site. Please light a candle in her memory. There aren't alot of things that I can do for Murron but whatever I can, I do and this is one of them.
If you are visiting because you too have lost a baby you'll understand. If you're visiting and its happened to someone in your family or a friend I know you try to understand. If you are visiting because you know me please read the following. I hope it helps you to understand just a wee bit what life is like for me now.
There really are no words to describe what I’ve been through, still am going through and always will go through. I lost my first, precious, beautiful daughter and the life we were supposed to have together. Nothing will ever replace that and I will never get over it but I’m learning to live and deal with it.
As time has went on the numbness has worn off and the reality of what has happened has set in, well and truly. I come across reminders everyday everywhere, whether it is a couple out walking with their pram or a mummy in Tesco with her baby. I could tell you so many situations and every one of them makes my heart break all over again. Everyday and everything is a challenge. It would be so easy to hide away from the world but I know that I can’t, I have to face up to it. I think that I’m doing a pretty good job so far, if I don’t say so myself! I just have to do things in my own time, when I feel ready and able.
When you lose your baby your life suddenly gets complicated and has to be worked at and nothing can be taken for granted. The feelings that you have are so intense. I sometimes wish I could turn them off just for a wee while to have a break from them. It would be so easy to go crazy with them. I have to live with these feelings and this terrible sadness for the rest of my life, that thought is so overwhelming sometimes. Basically at the moment I’m just concentrating on learning to deal with and live and accept these feelings. By doing this and not running away from them I do feel that I am getting stronger, slowly.
The world has become a confusing and lonely place too. Confusing for a million reasons but mainly because we would have given Murron such a loving and happy life so why isn’t she here when she was so perfect. It’s lonely because everyone else has their baby and I haven’t, everyone else seems to be happy and I’m not, I’m the odd one out. I feel like a freak sometimes in that I think why can’t I do something that so many other people can do so easy, have their baby and get to keep it and never know of this terrible sadness.
I know Murron didn’t breathe a breath outside my body, didn’t open her eyes and didn’t get a chance at life but I miss her so much it really does hurt. I’m more or less constantly thinking that she should be here. For the rest of my life, no matter what I do I’ll always have that feeling that she’s missing. I feel like I’ve been her mummy all my life, she’s what everything in it has been building up to. Even though she’ll never paint me a picture or make me a Mother’s Day present or win a sports day race, I’m so proud of her. I came across a wee saying on the internet that says a child fills a place in your heart that you never knew was empty, that’s so true.
I don’t want you to think that I’m being a drama queen! As I said at the start I just want to let you know what life is like for me now and how I feel because although I may look and sound the same Jill, and in some ways I still am, but others I’m not. I certainly don’t want you to treat me any different but just to always bear in mind what has happened.
I could probably go on and on but I’d better stop there! I hope it doesn’t sound all doom and gloom because I’ve not meant it to sound like that. If anything, I’ve found writing this to you has been quite therapeutic and anything at the moment that helps me to feel a bit better is always good.
I want to end on a positive note. There are so many things that I can’t do for Murron but whatever I can I will. I think the main thing is I owe it to Murron to not let what’s happened turn me into a horrible and bitter person, she certainly wouldn’t want a horrible mummy. She’s made me realise how precious life is and to be thankful for what I’ve got and to make the most of life. Although I’ll always have dark moments I know I’ll always come out of them with the help of the strength that she’s given me.
Please never forget about Murron. I know to you she was just a bump in my tummy and you didn’t get to meet her but you would have been part of her life. I ask that you always spare a moment to think about her, especially on special occasions like her birthday and at Christmas and if we’re ever doing something that she would have been part of. So just because she’s not here please don’t forget about her, that would mean so much to me.
Dear Murron,
Mummy and Daddy were so happy to find out about you four days before our wedding! We couldn't have asked for a more perfect present!
You grew and grew in Mummy's tummy while Daddy got your new home ready. Mummy was convinced that she was having a boy so when you finally arrived it was such a lovely surprise and extra special to me as I could name you Murron, a name that I had always loved.
Even in Mummy's tummy you were so good. Apart from giving me the usual pregnancy niggles I enjoyed carrying, protecting and nurturing you so much. Mummy's sorry that I used you as an excuse for eating Daddy's Christmas chocolates!
There are no words to describe Murron how much Mummy and Daddy love you and how sad we are that you can't be here with us. We would do absolutely anything but there are some things that even Mummies and Daddies have no control over. We hope that you're happy in heaven and are always with us.
One day Murron we'll all be together again in each other's arms, just as its supposed to be. Until then though Murron Mummy and Daddy will try to live our lives as best as we can without our precious, perfect and beautiful first daughter.
Our love grows each day for you Murron, it knows no limits. Our hearts are your home where we can love and protect you, always.
Mummy & Daddy
x
A very special poem written about a very special grand-daughter by her very special grandad
You will be with us, by our side you exist
You will be with us, the baby we kissed
You will be with us, though your heart does not beat
You will be with us, as we walk down the street
You will be with us, when others we tell
You will be with us, and our hearts they will swell
You will be with us, when our spirits are high
You will be with us, when we are sad and we cry
You will be with us, we will love you each day
You will be with us, in our hearts you will stay
You will be with us, our little angel in the sky
You will be with us, we will never say good-bye
You will be with us, when we grow old
You will be with us, still the baby we did hold
For Angel Murron
I drew an Angel on the sand
I drew an Angel on the sand
On the beach I walked one day
Where the sea brushes the land
Because my mind to you did stray
I drew an Angel on the sand
An impulse made me do
Others I’m sure will understand
It’s because I thought of you
I drew an Angel on the sand
I called it by your name
A simple outline drawn by hand
And comfort I did gain
I drew an Angel on the sand
The waves then washed away
But thoughts of you I will not ban
And your image with me will stay
Now each time when on the beach
Between the sea and the land
Where the waves struggle to reach
I will draw an Angel on the sand
An Angel poem for Baby Murron Watt
Written by Grandad Lyon
On 16th July 2010
I drew an Angel on the sand
I drew an Angel on the sand
I drew an Angel on the sand
On the beach I walked one day
Where the sea brushes the land
Because my mind to you did stray
I drew an Angel on the sand
An impulse made me do
Others I’m sure will understand
It’s because I thought of you
I drew an Angel on the sand
I called it by your name
A simple outline drawn by hand
And comfort I did gain
I drew an Angel on the sand
The waves then washed away
But thoughts of you I will not ban
And your image with me will stay
Now each time when on the beach
Between the sea and the land
Where the waves struggle to reach
I will draw an Angel on the sand
An Angel poem for Baby Murron Watt
Written by Grandad Lyon
On 16th July 2010
A Baby Girl Has Part of Me
A Baby Girl has part of me
I gladly gave it away
It is not something you can see
But it is with her every day
A Baby Girl has part of me
She did not need to ask
I gave it to her willingly
And forever it will last
A Baby Girl has part of me
It is something we can share
And for her it will always be
Filled with love and care
A Baby Girl has part of me
I gladly gave it away
It is part of my heart you see
And forever with her will stay
To Murron from
Granny and Grandad Lyon
XxxX
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
Our darling angel Murron
Up past the clouds
Carried by a dove
To a little angel
We send our hearts with love
Up past the clouds
Towards the shining sun
There is a little angel
Playing and having fun
Up past the clouds
Upon a shining star
There is a little angel
Watching over us from afar
Up past the clouds
Where the sun will always shine
One day we will hug an angel
And our hearts will stop to pine
Granny & Grandad Lyon
XxX
A poem for Murron by Auntie Marie
A little flower just loaned not given
To bloom and flourish up in heaven
She won't be alone when she gets there
She'll have her Granny Margaret to welcome her
With open arms and a loving smile
Just a glance it took then..... "There's my girl"
And with kisses and cuddles and bosies galore
There's no doubt she'll be loved and cherished forever more
So sleep like an angel, sweet little niece
For in all of our hearts is your own special place
Murron's Star
As you gaze towards the heavens on a clear and starry night just pause and look more closely for there's a star that twinkles bright
It radiates fond memories of love and tenderness of beauty and serenity and is there for us to bless.
Though years pass by and we grow old it will never fade away and its light will just get stronger with every passing day.
It's there for us to cherish and hold closely to our heart and it's telling us in a simple way that we'll never, ever part.
Lots of hugs and kisses, Murron
Grandma Cath & Grandad Brian xxx
Sadly taken but NEVER forgotten
If Love Alone Could Have Saved You,
You Never Would Have Died,
God Broke Our Hearts To Prove He Only Took The Best,
Never A Day Goes By That Your Not In My Heart, Mind And Soul
Love And Miss You Always Murron
Auntie Colleen xXx
I am so so sorry I really am...
I am sorry for your loss I really am. Your little Baby is with all the other little ones that have sadly had lo leave us .. I wish it were different for you all I really do.
Take care of yourself.
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Our beautiful baby grand-daughter, Murron
Robin and Jill, no words can say how much we feel for you both. Our love and thoughts are with you and Murron each and every day.
Murron, when born you made no sound
But with our love the silence was drowned
Murron, this air you did not breathe
But now your spirit brushes our face in the breeze
Murron, in body you are no longer near
But we can still talk as though you are here
Murron, you did not walk or run
But in our dreams we will still have fun
Murron, we had no chance to play
But in our hearts you dance each day
Murron, one day we just might not grieve
But from our thoughts you never will leave
Murron, our lives we have now had to restart
But our darling Angel you are forever in our hearts
Loved and missed so much. Sleep tight little darling.
Kisses and cuddles.
Granny & Grandad XxX
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